I wished for you…

On too many stars.  In tiny whispers of night when light peeked through pinholes of the velvet black evening air:

I wished for you…

Each nightfall, I’d breathe in deep and exhale words of desperate hopes.  “Please God, please make him mine…”  And when one star wouldn’t listen, I’d turn to another and

I wished for you…

More and more, until my bedtime lullaby became hushed undertones of words that pleaded your name and made me long for the moment that the stars would hear me; that God would answer my bedtime prayers.  Over and over…

I wished for you…

Until the stars dimmed and the night faded into days that didn’t have you, evenings filled with more words, more pleas, more yearning when I realized you still weren’t mine…but yet

I wished for you…

Continuously…Because more than anything I wanted you with me.  And when my words weren’t enough to grab the stars’ attention, to make them pick my wish, my tears tried.  And as the water trickled down my face

I wished for you…

And still the distance remained.  And I grew weary of wishes and stars.  I quieted my thoughts and silenced my tears.  I became numb of want and love.  But when my mind drifts to dreams…

I wish for you…